As the times goes by, i find it's hard to find myself, i dont know how to describe my life of recentness. i even dont want to look back it. it seem that i have no idea of my plan, it never happen before, i am so anxious to lose something that very important of my mind. i acknowledge i will out of my mind sometime, but when i stay alone i find myself right there clearly.

     Sometimes, i will ask myself, " am i stupid? why i always to do something stupid ? can you to be a more maturate person, remember, you are not born yseterday, you must be know what you should do and what you shouldn't do.

    For the past few years, i have become more and more frost, that is not what i want to be, i never thought i will become the person like that, i hate myself like that, but somehow i have to lead my life like that, that is reality which i have learned deeply now. so i tell myself sometimes, don't care much about some people, and also dont be hurt by some people, even dont expect some people would do something for you when you need, when you feel down, try to think the good sides of life and follow you feeling to do what you want to, that is enough, enough indeed.